im still not happy. and for stupid reasons.

im sorry if im a bore guys :(

i refuse to study for physics. its too...time consuming. when i could be reading the new books i bought. and mental note to self: stop buying books related to food.

yesterday was a weirddd weird day. hahhahaa, fun but weird. basically juns slept over and our fellow tutors, khalid and calvin, decide to come to my place after their "chasing after obama" plan failed. hahaha, we ended up playing monopoly and talking until like 4 or something. There was no way to let them out of the house by that time cos the maids were sleeping.

so they left in the morning, juns tried to sneak them out by the back by sprinting up the stairs back to her house (khalid waddled) but in the end, the parents found out -.-

surprisingly they didnt take it that badly. i think im so used to sneaking out and crashing at people's houses that when the two of them slept over i didnt think it was strange at all. now i really feel like the exams are over.

cant wait to continue what im doing now, minus the guilt.

the mindset of "not having to study for my future" is really setting in now.

shit.

plus i found a new website to waste my money away. im going the opposite of self-improvement with age. God save me.

sighhhhh...depression wave again. i hate this. once i get it, my entire day becomes unproductive. its retarded. and its scary that i can actually get this feeling during the exams.

ill just be sitting there and trying to answer the question. and this wave hits me, and i just have to put down my pen and like sigh. hahaha, but yeahh waste time. and its worse when its an essay question. happened during DRQ, i literally had to FORCE myself to keep writing. i was counting down to the end of the paper, usually i want more time. this time it was like "let this end nowwww"

but yeah, i'll get to work soon i think. i'll read nylon first.